belum sempat habis tutup buku 2009 , Allah bagi ujian ..dan menginsafkan.  ACCIDENT. yes , i was involved in an accident.

seriously bukan accident picisan, for the 1st time in my life somebody nearly die bcoz of me. Nauzubillah.

nak cerita panjang, macam malas.

but the accident happened last week, on my way to work early morning. i was already late, it was so fast , i barely know what exactly happened.  for all i know, a motorcyclist bumped into my right door (back ) n i can see him melambung thru my side mirror,diulangi melambung into the air n boom fall flat on his head (face) , MAN that was indeed a terrifying scene ive ever seen with my own eyes.

i stopped aside , n  the kid is still lying in the MIDDLE of the road. NOT MOVING. UNCONSCIOUS. i was scared to death thinking that i might ve killed someone. PUCAT lesi. PANIC all over. few motorcyclist stopped by to see what happened.  when i went out from my car, i was confused coz i didnt see any scratch on big ben  – actually ada , minor but i was too panic .

the boy was still lying on the road. luckily there was a truck that stopped right in front of him to prevent him from being hit by other cars. imagine jalan puchong- kajang yg sesak tu. i was more than lucky that he wasnt hit by other cars when he fells. the only no that i know was 999, when the operator asked me where did the acc happened i was speechless, i cant even tell where exactly i am!

” bertenang cik, saya tak boleh bantu kalau cik tak bagitau lokasi sebenar kemalangan!” she said.

then one pakcik came to me, saying that its okay, he has already called ambulans to pick the kid up.

few minutes later, the kid suddenly got up, i was relieved MasyaAllah , tuhan sahaja yg tau. HES NOT DEAD! blood was all over his face. quite severe injuries on his forehead. then the ambulance came n rushed him to hosp serdang.

……

that kid

few stitched on forehead, alhamdulillah no permanent injuries. tapi sayang half upper teeth falled out from the fall impact.

me

i was okay n am okay. only still trauma when driving

the bike n big ben

both okay, nothing  major . my side skirt terkeluar sket. n kemek near handles. BIG NOTHING compare to his injuries.

we both are done with the police report. eventhough im not sure if it was my fault or not, i probably will be charged rm300 for kecuaian memandu , but that was more than enough.

actually there was another honda said by the saksi menghimpit the bike maybe causing the accident, but i didnt managed to memorize his plate number, n tak mau la panjang cerita nak siasat , plus i was too panic i forgot to ask for the saksi no. so  end of story. nothing can be done. at least i can rest assured knowing that the boy is ok now.

were off to IPD sepang tonite if time permits.

important notes

• if you have any emergency like accident, robbery or anything call this number 0320529999 instead of 999 . cepat sket feedbacknye datte.
• always ask for another eye witness phone number. it really helps.

photo of the day

this photo really reminds me of mirumo-chan , an tiny angel who lives in a cup! kawaikunaii??

img source

seminggu lepas milk supply merudum yang amat, selalu 10minutes=5oz becomes 30z , makin sikit makin sikit =stress

padahal tak diet pun , makan lagila tak ingat2
berat pulak naik few hundred grams = another stress

mula terdetik – ish kalau bagi formula kan senang, tak payah aku nak stress
tak payah nak jaga makan
boleh diet gila babi
tak payah bangun pagi pump
tak payah burn rehat kat office untuk pump
tak payah bawak beg gabak2 pegi office.

satu malam stress rasa nak give up

tiba2 harini supply banyak back to normal (baru niat nak makan lobak putih, tak buat pun lagi)

ALLAH maha mengetahui
apa yg terbaik untuk hamba-nya
Nampaknya Dia tak bagi aku give-up awal2 Muharram lagi.

Syukur.Alhamdulillah.

btw , Selamat tahun baru kawan2.

in couple weeks time , itll be the time for us to say goodbye to 2009, wow, i can still remember how scared n excited i was welcoming 2009 coz we were expecting at that time. LOTS of good n bad things happened thruout the year, but the most memorable one will definitely be the arrival of Ayra.
,the sleep deprive , my bf journey, her sickness ,Alhamdulillah i managed, somehow. Eventhough i still have doubt whether we had been a good parent enough or not , but what im very sure is OUR infinite LOVE for her is undeniable, i love every inch of her, everything about her. and i pray that shell love us the same way when grows up . InsyaAllah.

another unpredicted thing that happened in this year is me getting a new job, yes i went to few interviews, but i didnt really put any hope, i did bad even in some of them. but Allah knows better, he plans better ahead of us. Alhamdulillah, i managed to secure a new job right before 2009 ends.
And I pray for a better year ahead, n dream to be a better person for Allah, my family ,and myself.

WAHM/ SAHM

lately selalu je kan dengar that word kan?
WAHM- work at home mom
SAHM- stay at home mom

ish mmg teringin nak jadi one of that, dulu masa bujang mmg tak penah terlintas nak duduk rumah lepas kawin. tak penah terfikip pun nak jadi housewife coz my mom isnt one, so mmg tak penah imagine myself staying at home jaga anak2.

tapi seriously bila dah jadi FTWM (full time working mom) mmg rasa sedih bila pk berapa jam la sangat we spend with our baby selain weekend, yealah pagi dah keluar, balik nak masak semua, bukan lama mana pun spend time dengan Ayra, tuptup dah tido. n it goes on n on. mostly time ayra jumpa org nursery agaknya. sedih sedih , tapi tula hakikat. mmg mampu kalau nak benti keje duk umah jaga baby, tapi with current living cost, our lifestyle (tak ada lah mewah but there are times that we want that finer things in life, dont you think?) converting from a FTWM to a SAHM needs a BIG BIG sacrifice,( seriously aida , i respect you tabik springgg for making the big decision) dont get me wrong, I DO want to see Ayra n her siblings growing up right in front of my eyes. no doubt of that.
kalau mmg dah azali you are a sahm tak penah generate duit sendiri most probably dah pandai manage family finance, but being a FTWM, dah biasa ada duit sendiri, i dont want to be stressed out for not being able to buy things i want other than asking for hubs money. walaupun itu tanggungjawab dia, i feel more comfortable buying things for myself using my own money.

disclaimer- this theory only APPLIES TO ME, sahm mom jgn terasa or rendah diri whatever ye. im not commenting or confemning anybody here, just talkin about me, myself.

uish panjang mukaddimah, actually entry ni is about what will i do if im a stay at home mom. kehkeh
yes, ill sew all day long. hahah
nolah, sikit2 tu boleh la , but i dont know if i want to venture into the bussiness all out or not, sakit kepala laa sewing lama2 nih seriously. kecil-kecilan- maybe. i used to love baking/cooking more than anything, i used to bake cakes, cookies, bread , cook malay, western, japanese,(korean even) chinese during U-days , i can even plan n cook for 50 people if i want to but unfortunately i kinda lost my mojo since i got back (plus got not oven mehh- haha alasan) – org dah kawin la lagi rajin masak, aku dah kawin lagi malas isk sabo jelah. i dont even know if the skill is still there , or they might have gone , with the wind. sigh~
so i will definitely cook/bake moreee if im not working .
ill definitely cook more veriety of food for hubs n Ayra (satu cooking book tu aku nak khatam, seriously hehe)
maybe ill take some baking/sewing orders from friends (not too big, nanti aku pressure haha) n organize gatherings at my house more often. i love meeting people! but currently our limited space in the house , n my limited time on weekends are not helping. maybe close friends boleh lah.
haa i want to hold a makan2 with blogger friends too! bessnyeeee.

i want to have a healthier lifestyle- pagi2 jog out with ayra (in stroller of coz) breathing fresh morning air, balik umah buat daily yoga ke. uii tranquility!
n i can homeschool Ayra , buat fun activities rather that spending too much time in front of phdc. LOL.
i probably start drawing, i love drawing. im not good at it but i love playing with colors!

tapi hakikatnya, during my leave days, being alone with ayra, satu hapa pun tak buat, nak lipat baju pun malas, bergolek2 tgk tv doing nothing adolah, maybe coz i want to rest n relax since hari lain dah kena kerja!
i dunno when will i be a sahm/wahm, but someday,when the time comes ..aku bagitau punyalahh.. LOL
so how about you?what will you do if ure a sahm/wahm?

last weekend update

FRIDAY : woke up EARLY morning to finish the flower girl dress, then went out for a date with my besties amal n farah (w/o ayra of coz – nursery tak cuti yeay!), indulged ourself at serenity spa, bangi (thanks k.ira for the recommendation!) with massage (tak indulge pun sakit ada lah! ) n mannipaddi BEST – gotta do this more . self pampering is soooo good. next time bole ajak nannoor / kak ira maybe? hehe
went to mines for karaoke but didnt make it coz we have to rush for ani’s wedding later that nite in kepong .
jalan JAM rush hour org KL yg tak cuti balik keje. hehe both Ani n MR BD looking stunningly gorgeous, Mr BD mmg la tak rupa org malu2 nak kawin langsung kehkeh, sengih manjang.
ayra behaved well at first, even danced to the kompang beat but then later towards the end of ceremony mula la CRANKY. sabojela

ayra n beloved aunty farah

girls who came that nite

hahaa seriously this photo is funny!
note to self – yabai muka dah tembam balik. need to diet!

SAT :woke up early again on Sat to get ready for our long awaited PD family day trip ( i was tok uya’s function actually, kami anak menantu tukang tag along only LOL)
the program was held at corus paradise resort- a nice hotel with nice sea view but unfotunately really bad food haha. seriously lalat banyak pulak tu, sigh, tapi since everything was paid for- so no complaint!
We had bbq that nite n there was a lucky draw , but too bad they only provided one number per family so kitorang tukang tgk ajelah. our family number was pick quite early so we won a panasonic iron leaving tok-ummi smiling all night long (boleh bawak pegi kursus katanya ) the top 5 prize was panasonic microwave! uishh envyy.
The next day activity was sukaneka, it was so funny watching tok uya tangkap belon air. hahaha. poor this one boy in front of him , being scolded for his bad throw (padahal dia tangka pun tak betul jugak heheh)
Eventhough the hotel was situated right along the beach line, i hardly feel any wind blowing at all!! panas gila, ayra pun muka tak larat coz of the hot weather. we went up right after the sukaneka finished.
Had our lunch n bid goodbye to PD. probably wont come back again LOL. – actually balik on the way, we drop by to see the house that we didnt even plan to buy -but end up booking for it! yg tu story later ok.

had to sleep with the balloons. lol

sunset by the beach

sukaneka pics

ive finished a few project but i forgot to post some of them here,

so here are my latest finished and ongoing project

project 8

diaper bag

 It took me  almost 3 weeks to finish this one! its not that hard but the thickness sickened me everytime LOL

i used designer fabric for the outer, and left ikea fabric (from maisarahs dress) for the inner. i also used fusible lightweight interfacing and fiber batting to make it sturdier, overall, i love the result! been using it in most of our outing already. best!

Project 9

learn to walk belt

i always inspired by Ashley from makeitnloveit , ive been planning to this n that but hardly have the time!  but luckyly this project doesnt require much time n was very2 easy to make, so i decided to give it a try. its a body belt to help ayra to learn to walk. like ashley ,we both are tall people, so its quite tiring to bend over holding her hand while her making some steps. so by using this i no longer have to bongkok2 n suffer back pain during tatih session n its really fun to use!

sorry , i forgot to take pic with ayra wearin it, so guna coco-chan to pose for the photo coz lil princess needs her beauty sleep .

project 10

ayras flower girl dress

i decided to sew a flower girl dress for ayra to wear @ anis wedding this weekend, i started cutting the fabric around 10ish last night n by 2am , the dress is already looking like this

i can tell myself improving quite a lot already coz i no longer do the jahit-bukakbalik-jahit thing and hardly use the seam ripper . bangga ok hehe the skirt was cut n measured free-hand and i also made the pleat free-hand to0, which explains the uneven gap of every pleat. pemalas betul , baju anak takpelah, kot baju customer kena measure suma siap2 baru cantik. hehe
btw the dress is not done yet, still need to finish the sleevem waist ribbon and the skirt hem. overall – really2 love the color! bought the sateen n baju melayu fabric from kamdar @ rm5/ mtr. cheap huh?

next pending project – my tunic

YES im participating the infamous contest again albeit the lost in the previous cutest baby with toys contest  kehkeh,
u know, i almost gave up with the contest actually, but when i see this month theme, i knew i just had to enter! (and win fabulous prizes from photobook malaysia and alice wonders of course!)

THe one n only photo that came to my mind (and hubs) when i see the December theme of mombloggersplanet monthly cutest baby contest is
this!

Ayra Nabila bt Khairul Salleh  born on 27th Jan 2009 . photo taken in May 2009

iiiiiyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, sungguuh gerammm eventhou rambut sikit je @ that time lol. (beware crazy mommy alert!lol)

i really2 love Ayra’s unique smile yg macam kejang otot2 mulut senyum luas-luas.

i love it that she smiles the moment she sees me , or hears my voice.

i love to see her smiling  coz that means  shes okay, safe  and comfortable.

coz babies dont fake their smiles. they smile when theyre happy, and thats it. no smiling pretending that everything is fine while its not, no smiling just to please somebody else, no smiling to gain something from others (or maybe theyll do that when theyre bigger of coz, hehe)

coz her smile is like the most ultimate cure for us after having a bad day at work.
her smile is like a hope during tough times in life.
and her smiles never fail to amuse us through sad times.
when everything is falling apart, and the world seems like its crashing at my feet, her smiles lighten up my day and make me stronger.

coz seeing her smiles reminding me to chin up, and be happy again no matter what.

thank you Ayra , for those smiles.

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**fingers crossed!

alhamdulillah, tahun ni ada rezeki ayra, kami join sebahagian korban.

btw ingat, korban tu bagus, tapi kalau sampai timbul riak “saya tiap2 tahun korbannn….” itu dah lari niatnyee, wallahualam.

i was more excited than anybody else, mmg semangat gila sbb 1st time tgk betul2 acara penyembelihan lembu live , the last time i saw was maybe like 10 years ago hah laaama tu.

This year raya was @ my side, n since my parents tak balik kedah, so beraya kat Putrajaya saja la jawabnye BESBESBES.

we joined the Qurban in presint8 on Friday while dads part was in presint11 on Sat.

ayra was excited to see all the kambings n lembus at first, but then got bored sbb banyak sngat n panas agaknye. i was lucky my brother carried her all the time so i got the chance to shoot some pics.

fun fact1 : rupanya, kalau kita ada bahagian, kita kena pegi pegang2 lembu tu and niat before it being slaughtered. now i know.  i was refraining myself from feeling sorry to the cows while they were cut , sbb kang takleh makan! hehe

n balik tu mom made rendang and sup with some of the meat , so we were beef overloaded for the whole 3 days burp alhamdulillah.

fun fact2: daging korban ni rupanya tak busuk langsung, even though not refrigerated for whole day!. KAGUM KAGUM

i was an interesting experience for us, and insyaALlah kalau ada rezeki lebih in future, kita korban lagi!

photo of the day
i just cant resist myself from shooting the cutest couple on earth!

like tok ummi, like cucu.

tok uya lending his expertise – MANDOR! lol

ok lil missy is sleepy, time to go home

..and before signing off i would like to wish you guys  Eid mubarak ! Drives safely . Were spending our eid in Putrajaya this year. hopefully tak jam nak balik tonite LOL. im soo excited coz were joining the qurban this year tomorrow nak pi tgk lembu disembelih! hehe take care everyone ~~~

See you next week!